Every workday (every good day anyway, and that's most of them), I sit in my car, going to and/or from work, and I wish... I wish I had a little more time to do the things that present themselves to my mind on such days. Draw. Videotape. Practice guitar/French/whatever. The trouble is, even when this free time wanders over and sits in my lap, I procrastinate.
Sometimes I procrastinate actively - I find "better" things to do. My favorite is housework. I'll do loads of dishes and laundry, pick up the clutter and maybe pick up a less pro-forma task or two. Often though, dishes are set, laundry is at a non-critical stage, and I will still sit and stare idly at the guitar, the French textbook, the camcorder and the whatever.
Sometimes, I procrastinate passively. Watch TV, browse the web or noodle around with something that has no possible redemptive value.
Every now and then though, something in my inherently self-defeating mind will fail, and I'll actually commence to creating something. I like those times. They're usually preceded by the unusual combination of a) a good idea, and b) the organization of said idea into a thumbnail, or some other structured planning. If I carry that structure long enough to sneak it past my own mildly destructive qualities, it's a fair bet that something (I consider to be) useful will come of it.
Those are good times. I should concentrate on improving that rough formula into a work ethic; right now though, UFC fighting is on, and I've been meaning to catch up on John Bizarre's website. He's very funny.
The waves were inconsistent but in the best way. They made space for me to
take some photos. And I joined the coffee Zoom of a friend. Yes, I joined a
Zoom call from the water. It was nice. Camaraderie is worth seeking out,
even digitally, even in the water. Loneliness, disaffection, dislocation,
disconnection are everywhere. And we need each other—human connection—more
than ever. It’s a time of great misery and injustice and there’s much work
to do. Let’s get to it, in kindness.
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