I feel so stupid. Stress produced rage, which produced destruction, which produced shame, which now produces stress, again. Ugh - brilliant.
I'm embarrassed at it. I don't want to discuss it with my loved one - why give my wife more evidence that she's married a fool? When I can't talk things out, I literally can not get them out. So, it recirculates within my systems, knotting my gut and haunting my psyche.
I can spoon some of it out here in my blog, which helps in small measure.
People must wonder how I can be comfortable noting in bright public relief things I am scared to admit in private. The answers are that I have a low estimation on humanity as the faceless, slobbering throng that it insists on proving itself to be. You inhuman rabble, I don't care what you think of me.
Paradoxically, people who have shown me kindness and friendship, even of a virtual kind, I trust you with my oddness, my pains, my secrets, my shames. I would gladly hand a knife to a friend and confidently turn my back. What good are these bonds if they can't be relied upon now and then?Thank you for listening.
Next week the Comics-themed group show starts up at Subterranean
coffeehouse in North Park. It’s a great neighborhood to come hang out in.
Bookstores, art stores, costume stores, used toy stores all in a tight
radius. Great coffee and food and a mellow hangout. Follow
@arthang_sandiego & @subterranean_northpark for more and get down there. I
have a piece up called “Cousins.” There are some really amazing pieces for
this group show.
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17 hours ago
4 comments:
Hang in there brotha Tom.
Hey, thanks man. I was just thinking about you. Life is ridiculous sometimes.
Entirely ridiculous.
Sometimes it's kind of fun, which is shocking considering how shitty it is sometimes.
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